First Post in a Hundred Years

Well I found this blog again and I'm pretty happy that I did because it is really going to be a place where I can write down exactly what is going on in this crazy life of mine. For now I'm keeping the title of the blog the same, Still writing, because I am, will and always will be writing. I may change it though, and I feel like I want to do more with this blogging thing. If other people can do it why can't I. I already write, and better than most of the general public. Lol...or at least I like to think I do.

To many of you out there in the world-Fan fiction is lame. It's for pimply teenagers, or dorks- but to me it is the avenue with which I choose to express myself. The naysayers- my mom, my husband, my friends- all wish I would begin to write more original fiction and develop my own characters but writing within the framework comes naturally and is a good writing exercise. Without having to work on characterizations, I know the world and the characters so well. It's more than that though.

I am currently publishing and am halfway through writing A Less Than Perfect Love- my second novel length fic. Really, now I am so addicted to it because it is the reaction I get that drives me. I am able to connect with thousands of people out there, who are actually fans of my writing. Who want to talk to me about it, who are passionate about it, who have discourse about it. That to me is spectacular. I love interacting with the fans. I love writing things that get real reactions from people, real emotion too. Fan fiction is the one place in the world that I fit- I really feel that way. It is also the one thing that makes me happy. I'm not sure that without the reaction, I'm going to feel compelled to keep working on any original writing. That thought scares me because time slips away so quickly.

I wish, as I always do that I had more time to write. I am usually at work, and when I'm not at work I'm contending with an out of control three and a half year old, the house, laundry, food, cranky husband...what we call in the fan fiction world RL or Real Life and mine is absolutely out of control.

I have alot of guilt inside of me- that I spend too much time writing and not working on my business (which is an amazingly huge time sucker)but then when I think about it how often do I write? Ten minutes here, half an hour there. A few hours one or two nights a week. All in all I'd say I spend about three or four hours a week writing, compared with my ten to five business six days a week. A business owner never rests, which is what I've learned. I know the business needs all of my attention so even time to write (even write this blog) is extremely limited. While writing this I know I should be doing something else, more productive but in a way I just couldn't today. Sometimes as much as I need or have to do I just can't do anything or get anything done. The Time Suck is something I will talk about more...I feel like everything is a time suck.